Thursday, June 04, 2009

Motion Sickness

My husband loves roller coasters. I, on the other hand, do not. And this week has been nothing but a big ol' series of emotional roller coaster rides. We learned early in the week that our TA had been sent from China and we should receive it by the weekend, most likely traveling on June 19. Yes, we had already discussed potential travel dates, as our agency was trying to get our consulate appointment scheduled before the new TB testing begins on July 1. We were elated... nearly skipping about the house. (OK, maybe not skipping, but close.) I was mentally "there".... planning to get all of my work projects done, finish all the packing and go bring our girl HOME!!

We found out just two days later that our agency was given incorrect information. In fact, our TA has not yet been granted and it is not known when it will be, leaving us to speculate if the C*CAA is purposely holding up TAs for a specific (yet unknown) reason. Maybe it might happen next week, maybe not... we just don't know. And between the potential of getting quarantined upon arrival due to someone having a fever on the airplane and now the added risk of getting a delayed departure due to the TB testing, I am just in a funk. Please forgive me. I know God is sitting in the driver's seat and that He has everything under control and all will be well in the end. I really do. And this is just a disappointment, not a tragedy, but I am just a bit overwhelmed with all the unknowns right now. So, I'm going to take a few days away from the computer. I just want to enjoy and appreciate all of God's blessings in my life. And then maybe I'll come back with a better outlook to welcome in the new week.

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And BTW, my husband really does love roller coasters. (See Nolan waving in green jacket.)

14 comments:

Stefanie said...

Oh girl, that HAS to be tough.
Thankfully, He DOES have it all under control, just rest in that truth...
BIG HUGS!

Jill said...

Michelle, I am so sorry about the crazy ride, but you are right, HE DOES have it under control. Remember this is just like labor, painful, but well worth it in the end, and something that you won't quite remember!
Hugs girl!
Jill

Stacy said...

Hang in there Michelle. I am so sorry for you. This is certainly a huge disappointment but I know that God has a plan for your family. Hugs to you- I'll be praying.

Tisha said...

Michelle,

I'm so sorry for your disappointment. If you are anything like me, sometimes it is easier to intellectualize our faith and trust in the Lord rather than emotionalize it at times like these. And you are wise to remind yourself that God IS in control. I pray that your disappointment will soon turn to gladness. Have a nice break. We'll miss you. :)

Blessings,
Tisha

Stacy said...

I'm sorry! Hang in there. It will all be perfect in God's timing, and everything will work out. I'll be praying for it to be coming soon!

Jboo said...

Oh Michelle -- I am so sorry to hear that news. Take it easy.

Janet

Marla said...

Everything will be fine, just you wait and see! Take some time and enjoy your blessings, I'll keep you in my prayers this weekend. Dont stay away to long.

a Tonggu Momma said...

Michelle ~ I'm so sorry for the roller coaster ride. Huge hugs and enjoy the time focusing on other things!

LaLa said...

Oh sweetie...so sorry. I hope the ride slows down soon!!

Ashley said...

Oh Michelle - my heart goes out to you! Know that I am praying and that he has everything in his plan :)

Big Hugs to You, Ash

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

Michelle, you have every right to feel the way you do. This process is so difficult and it is almost impossible to keep your emotions at bay. I can only imagine the range of feelings you are going through....hang in there my sweet friend. It will come soon.

Hugs,

Lisa

PS...that picture is fantastic:)

Missy said...

Michelle,
I remember the roller coaster quite well and it isn't any fun. Take all the time you need. Enjoy your sweet family, treat yourself to an indulgence, spend time with Him. She will be united with your precious family in His timing, which will be the most perfect time for you all. Hugs sweet girl!

Steffie B. said...

Oh Michelle.....I am so sorry....this adoption journey is a tough one...but you already know that.....I'm praying that your answers come soon sweet girl....

Rebecca said...

Praying for you... I know cliche phrases don't really take the ache away, so I will just pray. :)